Very bad news

Hi Sparrow, Oh I so sorry to hear such bad news, I knowhow it is to have to face bad times alone. I have a lotof problems with only my yellow Lab to help me get through tough times. Pets are wonderful. I will be praying for you and hoping the results are not as bad as you think. Please keep us posted.....we care.

 

Sparrow,
I'm so sorry to hear the bad news. I hope and pray that all will be well for you soon. Post when you can, and for heaven's sake, don't think your venting will be boring. I would say that with what your are having to deal with, even a little whining would be appropriate. Hang in there. We care.
Leon

 

Sparrow you know that we are here for you! I know not physically which is what you need, but we are here for you! I'm a pm away.

I am/was an X-ray tech so I know x-rays. Once my dog kicked me in the ribs - accidentally of course - and even though I knew nothing could be done if I'd cracked a rib I decided during a slow time to do a quick chest x-ray. Welllll, when the Doc saw my x-ray he freaked out telling me I had several 3mm nodules in my lungs! Next thing I knew I was having a CAT scan and then having surgery for a biopsy! I'm really not sure to this day if I ever realized how fast this all happened cause I did not have time to get scared. By the time the biopsy was done (2 days later) the nodules were starting to get smaller and end result was granulomas, which was not anything to worry about.

I'm going to hope and pray that this will be the end result for you too! All my best to you - good thoughts and prayers and you are not alone!

 

{{{{{ SPARROW }}}}} I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers your way!!!!

 

Cdedie ~ Thank you for sharing this story. I already have a calcified granuloma and hearing that yours went that way is giving me hope !!! ((appreciative hugs)) good for you that it did !! do you do any follow-up x-rays?

Stacy, Leon, Jade, Spinner, Maggie, deercharmer, LisaB, Wobbles, Titus, Amy,Tracy, JRW, Thornapple <--- all of your prayers and kind thoughts have helped me immensely to get thru most of tonite. I couldn't have faced tonight without your support, you all are the greatest !!

I just have to say that some of my "healthy" outer circle of aquaintances seemed to be playing it down significantly, shrugging it off as if I have a cold and hurrying off the telephone tonight. Sadly I guess it takes those of us who are surviving from MM to know what it really means to get kicked down physically. Having survivors such as yourselves rally around is a real boost to my morale tonight. Words just can't adequately describe how grateful I feel from your ourpouring support.

Heading back to watch more re-runs of Mash and will keep laughing the evening away.

Sparrow

 

I omitted a few names, sorry, so let me add the first responders to my list of appreciation:

CowCollector, GinaMc, Amethyst, Linda, Robyn, Abra, KareBare

Sparrow

 

Here is another Cyber HUG to add to your list and please keep us posted. Sending my most positive thoughts your way-Yvonne

 

(((((HUGS))))))
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More (((((HUGS))))) :-*

 

sparrow, bless your heart my prayers are with you. :-*

 

It's stat on the xray and then it's hurry up and wait getting the CT Scan. Then the pulmonologists appointment is the end of October, so I have a call into my referring doctor to get some help with expediting this for me. I wanted this all done today, but unfortunately the medical world doesn't seem to work this way.

Didn't sleep a wink last night and feel like a zombie today, however, I did feel comforted by your presence during the wee hours of the morning. We don't have cancer in my family of origin and I feel like this can't be really happening to me. I'm in denial today but I also am panicking. I don't know whether to sit or stand or walk or lay down. Wrapping my mind around this is just too hard today. It's like I am standing outside my body observing myself. The extreme dizziness yesterday has left me and I feel more balanced today, however making the arrangements this morning I thought I was going to topple over a few times.

Charisse, Caron, saltlesstears many thanks for your kind thoughts and prayers

Sparrow

 

My Dear Sparrow,
In my first post to you I mentioned that I liked your Nick and reminded you "His eye is on the sparrow." (before the big crash) Do not forget this, my friend. By-pass the Angels on this one, (looking back at an earlier post) Go straight to your heavenly Father. When you feel alone he is always there. He is the great physician and yet he gives us trials to bring us closer to him. We will be here to support you in all that we can. You know you are in my thoughts and prayers. I pray God will send you someone to give you that personal contact that we desire. But know that when the time is right all things will become clear.

God Bless,
Mike

 

Sparrows are bird survivors. The are feisty and do what they must to get by. You too.
Paul

 

Sparrow... sorry to hear your going through all of this!! Hope you feel better soon!! HUGS!!!!

 

You certainly have had a boatload dumped on you! I'm so sorry that it seems to keep piling up. But not every scenario is the worse - it may be like cdedie and go away, or something else fixable. Try to keep a positive perspective. Pamper yourself with a special bubble bath.

Praying for you! (Consider the sparrows, does not the Heavenly Father feed them? Are you not more important to Him than the birds of the air? -- from Matt. 6)

 

Sparrow...Sounds like you need some chocolate!! Please know that you are in my thoughts and that I am praying that everything turns out well.

Keep us posted!!

{{{{{Major HUGS!!!}}}}}
Bergs

 

Sparrow,
So sorry to hear this, sending you positive thoughts, prayer's and ((((((((BIG HUGS))))

Janet

 

Sparrow--

You remember when I had my MRI and then they got all serious and worried and said that I'd have to have another one? They never told me why and then I got my hands on the report and discovered that it wasn't cancer--there is a possibility that I have a brain aneurism? Well, they still haven't called me for the second MRI and when they do--I won't be going!

They're always finding things that aren't really there.

Don't worry about it, okay?

Cancer is so over-marketed and talked about that they jump to conclusions too quickly. And also, they are afraid of law suits later so that if there is even anything small--they immediately jump on it so that you can't blame them later! But the thing is that in the meantime--you suffer.

Well, back when I was married only one month, I found a lump in my breast. I went to my GP and was immediately rushed to a mammogram which detected something bad so then to a cancer specialist who was going to do some kind of thing the next working day. Over the weekend, the lump disappeared leaving them all wondering.

Well, the thing is--that during that weekend, I did a lot of hard thinking. I thought a lot about what was very important to me in my life. And the decisions that I made that weekend have changed my life path drastically.

On one level, this is a blessed time. It will enable you to make decisions about what you really value and what you are really doing with this life we've been given. We all have finite time here, but when it comes up close like this it enables you to design a wonderful life with the time you have been given. It sort of wakes you up--and then once you're wide awake to the beauty of life and the wonder of it--you'll probably get the news that everything is fine. And then you get to have light upon light!

Love Tamara

 

Mike ~ Yes, I remember your kind comment about Sparrows awhile ago and you know what? I think of this specific comment often, it stays with me and I smile. Reading your post brought tears and I needed that release today. My faith has been tested over the past 12 months. I needed to be reminded of Him now as thinking straight is an issue right now. I found myself sitting in my rocking chair most of the day today just staring at a blank wall but reading your post has helped me move beyond just staring to sitting here writing back to going to the next thing I must do today and that is to fall upon my knees in active prayer. Thank you Mike for this gentle reminder.

Paul ~ In my youth I was labeled a rebel, rebelling against anything and everything. Most of my life I have lived outside "the box" (a 60's way of thinking). I have always been the one who shakes the tree and gets alot of things popping and moving, not a very popular position to take and so was labeled also the outsider. So, yes, you are correct, I am feisty, always have been. There was a Christian book called "The Worried Sparrow" and it resonated with me and so I have used my nick name as Sparrow alot. I just have lost my way right now and the feistyness is hiding from me.

Shudabenanun ~ thanks for the hugs, I needed a cyber hug today !!!

Headnoise ~ You are correct in that not every scenario is the worst case. I have already gone and buried myself - in my mind. Now I just need to work backwards from that. I guess I needed to bury myself first before I could unearth my instincts to survive, kind of an odd way of thinking. This brings to mind, speaking of burying myself, the story behind "saved by the bell". Hundreds of years ago, before modern medicine, when a person was buried a string was tied to the finger of the deceased. If the deceased person wasn't really dead and woke up 6 feet under they would move their hand and a bell that was attached to it ontop of the soil would ring. That was when the cemetarys of yesterday hired watchers to listen to bells ringing. Hence the term "saved by the bell". Just thought I would share this morbid fact, LOL.

Bergs ~ You are 100% correct, I do need a girls best friend............. chocolate. In fact I am heading out in a bit for a run on a local convenience store ..... their candy isle. It's time I broke from my abstenance of sugary things, if not just for a day............. or so?? LOL. And, thank you for the hugs !!!!!

Janet ~ Thank you for thinking of me and keeping me in your prayers and the hug too !!! ((((hugs back)))))

Tamara ~ Yes, I do remember your going thru the MRI for your first time and you got thru it But I didn't know about the possibility of the 2nd MRI, did I miss that post? Do you think you should call them back and inquire if a 2nd MRI is needed??? I would hate to think that you fell thru the crack in that department and some clerk accidently filed your report in the wrong place !!!! An aneurism is nothing to fool around with, especially in the brain, promise me you will call them to check to be sure??? Thank you for sharing how your life changed Tamara, your story touched me very deeply, oh here come the tears again............... :'( I thought having MM and being approved for SSD was life altering enough and I am still reeling over this hugh change in my life and haven't really dealt with it and now to have to deal with this cancer scare on top of it all, is just............ well, over the top, too much information for this little brain to process in such a short period of time. I love your term........... "light upon light". I hope this happens to me. I hope I can wake up from all of this and put my "house in order" a new way. I just left a hard charging life of a job that kept me for the last 30 years 24/7 and all that goes along with that lifestyle. Now it has suddenly stopped and I am agog over what this new life means to me. I just can't process it all, but I will tell you what, I can start today... baby steps.

God Bless you all !!!

Sparrow

 

much much love to you today sparrow

 

Makes perfect sense to me Sparrow - unearth that suvival instinct any way you can.

More <<<huge hugs>> coming your way.

Amethyst