lets uplift Sparrow tonight

Sparrow,

You are in my prayers.

More Hugs!
Tracy

 

Hi Sparrow...

I take it it's evening in the U.S right now as it's lunchtime on Thursday here!

Just wanted to see how your day was today and to tell you we're all still thinking of you.

Sleep well mate,

Jimmy

 

Hey Sparrow!

Make sure that cats don't get their tails under the rocking chair!

I'm happy about the wall, too. And I feel honoured to be allowed into your life (I'm also so grateful for all the advice and encouragement re: Mew!)

About your father's funeral...everyone was rushing to console the widow--they just didn't remember that there were others grieving too. It's a good lesson for me--not the first good lesson I got off of this forum.

Love

Tamara

 

sparrow,

I'm up late, well for me it is I was just thinking of you sweety. I want you to know we haven't forgotten about you. I just love all those who have posted here, I get a tear when I read them. I don't think anyone could ask for better friends. Sweet dreams sparrow :-*

 

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Hope your well today sparrow :-*

 

((((BIG HUG"S)))))))) and :-* :-* :-*

Hope you're feeling better.....continue prayers and positive thoughts for you sweety!!!!!!!


Janet

 

sparrow,

Check in sweety when your up to it

 

Hi all ((((((group hugs))))))) !!!! Once again I am overwhelmed by your very kind responses and staying connected with me. You are all I have in my life now, with the exception of my cats, LOL. You all mean soo much to me. I will never forget this experience I have had here at Menieres.org. You all are a turning point in my life, you will all forever stay an impression in my mind, a yardstick for how I will measure the rest of my life. Until I met each one of you, I hadn't a clue about how kind and supportive human beings can be to each other. I have experienced the other side, the dark side from my family of origin and chose to hide from people until I met MM. Wow!!

Went to a new primary today and was very under impressed with her. Was hoping she could help me understand everything that was going on with me, pull everything together and explain everything. Isn't that was primary pdocs are supposed to do? I think I overstayed my 15 minutes with her. I took in my large notebook filled with lab reports, etc and I could see her glaze over when she saw the size of it. She mumbled some comment that medicine is not a science. I then said that I was looking for a "smart doctor" to help me wade thru all these reports and tie them in together. She did, however take note of the psych meds that I am on and recommended that I go back to my shrink :-\ That was the most telling thing she did. She refused to go over my specialists' reports. She left the room and was gone for quite sometime until I got up to inquire. The nurse said she had moved on to more patients. I left there in tears. I won't be going back. I need Dr. House !!!

Sleep evaded me last night. I think it was over this upcoming doctor appointment today. It was at the hospital and parking was a bear. I had to park pretty far away and MM was bad today and so had alot of difficulty maneuvering thru the cars and by the time I got to the building I was feeling pretty bad as the spins had settled in, then the trip up the elevator was scary, waited 55 minutes to see this new doc. Does anyone here know about handicapped license plates? This fatigue is overwhelming me.

Next Tuesday will be my appointment with the pulmonologist. I feel like a walking time-bomb, this cancer scare............ will this wait to get to the pulmonologist be dangerous? The Stachybotrus mold lab reports were faxed to my allergist this afternoon and so am hoping they will call me tomorrow with the results, if they understand the results, big sigh.

Is this doctor right? Modern medicine is just a crap shoot? Why can't we know definitively stuff we need to know? Stamping my feet hard !!! What's wrong with doctors today anyway? Is it the 15 minutes insurance allows doctors to doctor or do doctors just don't care anymore? She didn't seem to care. There I was wanting and needing a doctor to help me and she refused. I had a doctor call me on the telephone 2 years ago and whisper to me to leave her practice as I had too many things wrong with me and she didn't want the risk with me. I guess I shouldn't have brought in that large notebook. I guess I keep hoping somebody will be able to connect the dots.

I am feeling angry tonight. Today is my one year anniversary of the onset of MM. Today was the day my mother was murdered one year ago today. Today was the beginning of the end of my life as I once knew it one year ago. Anniversaries are tough.

Feeling sorry for myself today I guess. Am I expecting too much out of life? It's not fair, it's just not fair, none of this.

Sparrow

 

Sparrow,
I've been away from my computer since Sunday and just read about your distress. Know that you are in my prayers. Please keep us posted. When you feel bad or angry ---- POST. From what I've read in the messages before me, you seem to feel better when posting. We're all here pulling for you. I hope you can get a good rest tonight.
Leon

 

Sparrow,

You have alot on your plate sweetheart. I didn't know of your mother's murder :'( I'm so sorry. I wish I wasn't here but there with you, just sitting togeather, talking it all out with some hugs and tears. Today is a rough one but your tomorrows will be brighter. Keep advocating for yourself because you deserve it. I some times look in the mirror and tell myself I love you and I will fight for you. I think of you most of my days since I met you, you are still in my prayers before I go to bed. I devote a long while for the woman who has touched so many hearts here. I know when God lays a person on my heart and its you, I know others have told me this also. Breath in our prayers for you sparrow, I always pray God would give you such peace through this time. Your new sister :-*

 

Got hugs?

Sparrow,
Sorry about the recent doctors visit. Sounds like an awful experience at a time when you need some good docs that know the right paths to take and the right order to follow.
Like Charisse, I wish I could let you know personally that we are with you and praying for you. I'm keeping watch and praying tonight. So rest easy. Your body needs it.

 

Thinking of you Sparrow and {{{HUGS}}} to help scare the boogey man away

 

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Sparrow,

What a strong person you are - to manage yesterday so well with it's horrible anniversary.

I agree, unfortunately you found one of the many uncaring doctors out there - get rid of her real fast and onto the next. Don't give up, you've got it in you to get through all this - and you've got us here to lend you hand anytime. We're all with you.

...and I agree that there is no way I could ever liken you to a mole. Maybe it took these trials to figure out who you really are...a wonderful, caring and strong person. You have so many friends here....family really.

You've really touched my heart - thank you.

Amethyst

 

No Sparrow, you are not expecting too much. But you are right about one thing.....life is not fair. It's OK to be angry and to feel overwhelmed. By the way, and keep in mind that this is only my humble opinion, that doctor is an idiot! I think that her cousin may be realted to my former ENT.
Hang in there and keep in touch with us. We care!
hugs
SherryC

 

So sorry to hear about your crummy drs visit. I had to fire a few docs myself - they knew less than I did, at least about MM, because of the fine folks here at this forum and research I had done on my own. My current neurotologist is wonderful and will say"It is called the PRACTICE of medicine" so we don't know all the answers and much of MM is mysterious.
I would say that is probably true of a lot of human conditions. We are all different and what works for one person, does not for another. The point here is KNOWLEDGE IS POWER and perseverance will get you to that person who will help you, listen to you, and treat you as an intelligent person who deserves to be heard. Keep that big notebook with you, they need to see your whole picture. If they are scared off by it, move on to somebody else.

Don't give up, don't give up, don't EVER give up!

 

Good post headnoise,, Just popped in to say hey to you sparrow. I hope your feeling a bit better, if you are up tonight you can pm me and we can chat again. I had one of those bad days and a friend suggested I get my nails done, I did and now I can tackle anything The only problem is I can't type with these things My husband says they are a good thing for him too, he promptly took his shirt off and asked for a back scratch I told him we have a cat and I would gladly go get him if he liked

 

Oh my Goodness, Sparrow...I missed this post...I didn't read your follow up until just now and now I am so sorry about it.

Well, you are on your path. Walk it with your characteristic strength and dignity.

Remember, we're all pulling for you.

Tamara

 

{{{{{ SPARROW }}}}}

Bless your heart!!! Please don't give up on trying to find a Primary Care doctor that will listen to you and want to help. I agree with Sherry, keep your notebook with you! We are our best advocates for our own healthcare. If that doctor didn't want to take the time to listen to you, move on to another one. You deserve better treatment that what you received!

You have been through so much in your life, by yourself. Please remember, you are not alone! We are all here for you cheering in your corner, praying for you and sending loving thoughts and warm hugs to you!!!

Stacey
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