majorly depressed

Well here I am again...more depressed than ever. i can't hear..even with my hearing aid. We to my daughter's performance in her highschool rendition of the Nutcracker and couldn't hear a bit of the musod...it was all mushed together. then my daughter wants to go out to dinner afterward and she picks a a reateraunt I can't posible pick anything to eat,because it's a japanese stake house. I kept telling him and he would't listen...so I had to sit there and watch everyone else eat. This is too hard to live with...I've tried for the past 7 months and as of today....I QUIT. I just ca't do this anymore. I'm all alone in this thing and I'm tired. Maybe tonight I go to sleep and not wake up

 

You aren't alone. We are here to support you in any way we can. There is always someone on this site twenty-four hours a day and when you reach out one of us will be there. I know it is hard and often seems impossible, but you can do it. I believe in you. Families often have a difficult time understanding our needs and I am so sorry you have been put in a position of such difficulty. Is it possible for you to reach out to someone, a friend, near-by? If not, and even if you can, would you consider calling your doctor. Depression and anxiety are common to MMers and many of us need meds to cope. This isn't a disgrace or personal failure; it is just a fact. Please consider what I've said, I care. Feel free to post or PM me any time. :-*

 

So sorry. I know this is hard but try to think that although it was awful for you, your daughter was probably over the moon you were just there. Even though you couldn't hear it properly you wouldn't have missed it. I once went for Japenese for my birthday and when we got home I was so hungry we fried up the fattest chips you have ever seen. So you would have been hungry afterwards anyway.

Don't quit because you're not alone. You are tired and you will wake up but take comfort in that you have your daughter at home at school and safe and that she wants to spend time with you. She is young and consideration and being thoughtful are not qualities that come easy at that age, or even enter there heads - believe me I know.

Keep your chin up petal

Chez

 

I just don't think anyone really understands..except those who share in what I'm going through...and I'm tired of having to expain every minunite of every day...I don't have a doc who really knows about this disease..the one I have is impossible to get ahold of in an emergency...his response is go to the emergency room...and wait 3 hours for someone who really doesn't know what;s going on. I feel like I'm in the twighlight zone...lost and scared to death

 

You are right, most folks around you don't understand and need to be educated. In the beginning I didn't know what was happening to me and my family couldn't understand why I was different from the wife and mom they had always known. It took years for me to be diagnosed. It was hard as you know.

What you need is another doctor, a specialist if possible. Ask your doctor for a referral for a second opinion or check the internet for neurotologists near you. It is mandatory that you find a doctor who will listen and one you can relate to. Once you have a doctor that understands your family can talk to him/her and may understand more. In the mean time, it is up to you to try to educate them about your illness. We encourage relatives to log on and even post on this site. Often they are under stress and feel lost too. Or, you can print up and let them read some of the posts which describe MM and related disorders and how they affect us. Click on this and see if any of the threads relate to your situation:

http://www.menieres.org/forum/index.php?board=3.0

Hang in there. We need you. :-*

 

WE understand, keep typing and you will feel better. A lot of us suffer from depression and especially with what we deal with day to day concerning Menieres. You will feel better if you talk to someone like you are now by typing on the forum!!! There are LOTS of others who understand Weebee!!! I'm bettin you go to sleep and wake up much better after letting it all out here. But also, Major depression is serious so please call someone or go to the emergency room if you must! Lifes too short as it is to feel this way and there is sooooo much help for depression! YOU ARE NOT ALONE...many many many have been where you are right now and survived!

Hang tough, i'm thinkin of ya!

 

Please get help for the depression. When you suffer from depression, everything feels like it's overwhelming. I've had two major depressive episodes. The second one came after I was dx with this illness. After we got the depression under control, the illness was much easier to cope with. I'm not minimizing the hell this illness causes, but with depression, it will seem like there is no hope nor enough energy to look for solutions.

Please PM me if you need to talk to someone who has had extreme bouts with depression.

Kim Titus

 

Bless your heart. I know how frustrating this can be. In a sense , outside of those of us who share this monster, we are alone. How can other's possibly understand? Even the most caring family members or friends find this hard to grasp. We get so tired of fighting for something that resembles a normal existance. What we wouldn't give for a nice boring uneventful life. But please, if you hear nothing else in this message hear this: Right now you are in the valley and it hurts, but tomorrow you may be climbing up to the top of the mountain and feel joy again. You must NOT give up. I know it's hard. It's unfair and it stinks! Sometimes we have to experience the pain to truly understand the blessings of the Joy.
We are here. We care and you are NEVER alone. You are in my prayers.
hugs
SherryC

 

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Hang in here with us, we are here for you and believe it when we say we have all been where you are right now at one time or another. It's very important that you see a Dr. about the depression, it's common and goes with the territory I'm afraid and this time of the year makes it even more difficult. You are loved and you are needed even if you don't believe that yourself right now. PLEASE, PLEASE, get yourself to a Dr. and get that depression looked after. ((((((((((((( hugs )))))))))) Loretta

 

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I agree with everything everyone said, especially Titus and pardonme.

I felt just like you in the beginning. I just wanted to go to sleep and not wake up. Don't give up. Give it time. And even if you never get the support from family and friends, you have our support and you are stronger than you think. You WILL learn to cope and find ways to help yourself......because life is worth it and so are you!

 

There's not much I can add to the excellent replies you've already gotten, but just wanted to add my prayers that tomorrow is a better day for you.

You will learn how to cope with the Meniere's, but you may need help dealing with the depression. Please don't wait to get help - you don't have to feel this way!

xoxoxoxo
deercharmer

 

My family (most, anyway) doesn't get it. Sometimes I think I am all alone. Yes, it is depressing, but you must scrape yourself off of the floor and keep on going. It hurts, but we all have a life out there that we have to go grab by the horns. Meiere's is destructive, but not terminal.

I try to remind myself that everyone has a "problem." It may not be the same one that we have, but to them, it is just as signifigant. They all have to suffer through something, even though we don't see it.

It is hard to keep moving when we get beaten down, but, as my Momma always said "Ain't no one lookin' after you but you." Momma has an 8th grade education, but is a millionaire. (plus some)

Put up with the bad night, and plan yourself a good night.

Suffer through your adversaries, then find a moment to make yourself smile. Your life isn't over, it's just waiting for you to grab it.

Just smile through bad times, then do things alone that you love.

Can someone cut and paste this and email it to me when I hit rock bottom? They are just my thoughts. Ignore them if you wish.......

 

Weebeefine, please lean hard on this forum, and the good people here will hold you up. This is why they are here. I don't completely understand meniere's because I myself don't have it, but I do know about dark, crushing depression. I hurt for you. I wish I could help you.
Hugs, Earl

 

weebeefine
This is too hard to live with...I've tried for the past 7 months and as of today....I QUIT. I just ca't do this anymore. I'm all alone in this thing and I'm
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I'm so sorry for what you're going through .. I can't say when but it does get "Under Control" with meds. Please don't wait to see someone about your depression. I to have suffered 3 yrs with chronic depression, and almost 7 yrs w/vertigo and MD and it certainely does not get easier. YOU learn how to cope with it, you learn a new life style basically.

Do Not Quit Keep Fighting Do Not Give Up!!!!

We are all here just waiting to hear from you. When you feel like you are being dragged down farther to the deep dark waters of depression... make yourself think of what You are thankful for, things that are good n your life.... husbnd n kids, family and I'm sure you can fill in the rest of those blanks. I just today finished Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyer and that's
where I got the idea from

If you wish to talk anytime just pm me & I'd be more than happy to talk with you

http://www.vestibular.org/vestibular-disorders/specific-disorders/meniere92s-disease.php
Meniere's disease is a vestibular disorder that produces a recurring set of symptoms as a result of abnormally large amounts of a fluid called endolymph collecting in the inner ear.

The prevalence of Meniere's disease is difficult to assess. One population study found that 15.3 per 100,000 individuals develop Meniere's disease annually. Of these, one-third eventually develop the disease in the second ear as well.

The exact cause of Meniere's disease is not known. Theories include circulation problems, viral infection, allergies, an autoimmune reaction, migraine, and the possibility of a genetic connection. Experts also aren't sure what generates the symptoms of an acute attack. Some people with Meniere's disease find that certain triggers can set off attacks, including stress, overwork, fatigue, emotional distress, additional illnesses, pressure changes, certain foods, and too much salt in the diet.

Attacks can last from 20 minutes to 24 hours. They can occur many times per week; or they can be separated by weeks, months, and even years. The unpredictable nature of this disease makes it difficult to tell how it will affect a person's future. Symptoms can disappear one day and never return, or they might become so severe that they are disabling.

Symptoms: During an attack of early-stage Meniere's disease, the main symptoms are spontaneous, violent vertigo, fluctuating hearing loss, ear fullness, and/or tinnitus. Following the attack, a period of extreme fatigue or exhaustion often occurs, prompting the need for hours of sleep. The periods between attacks are symptom-free for some people and symptomatic for others.

Late-stage Meniere's disease refers to a set of symptoms rather than a point in time. Hearing loss is more significant and is less likely to fluctuate. Tinnitus and/or aural fullness may be stronger and more constant. Attacks of vertigo may be replaced by more constant struggles with vision and balance, including difficulty walking in the dark and occasional sudden loss of balance. Sometimes, drop attacks of vestibular origin (Tumarkin's otolithic crisis) occur in this stage of Meniere's disease.

Treatment: In the United States, the most conservative long-term treatment for Meniere's disease (aimed at reducing the severity and number of attacks) involves adhering to a reduced-sodium diet and using diuretics, or "water pills." The goal of this treatment is to reduce inner ear fluid pressure. Some physicians, more commonly outside of the United States, also weigh the potential efficacy of using betahistine HCl (Serc) as a vestibular suppressant for Meniere's disease.

Medications that are used during an attack to reduce the vertigo, nausea, and vomiting include diazepam (Valium), promethazine (Phenergan), dimenhydrinate (Dramamine Original Formula), and meclizine hydrochloride (Antivert, or Dramamine Less Drowsy Formula). Vestibular rehabilitation therapy is sometimes used to help with the imbalance that can plague people between attacks. Its goal is to help retrain the ability of the body and brain to process balance information.

Another recently introduced, conservative treatment approach employs a device to deliver a series of low-pressure air pulses designed to displace inner ear fluids. The use of this device is approved for general use by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA) and is currently undergoing clinical trials in the United States.

For the 20-40% of people who do not respond to medication or diet, a physician may recommend a chemical labyrinthectomy, which destroys vestibular tissue with injections into the ear of an aminoglycoside antibiotic (gentamicin). Another less conservative treatment is surgery to relieve the pressure on the inner ear (although this is not as widely used now as it was in the past) or to destroy either the inner ear or the vestibular nerve, so that balance information is not transmitted to the brain.
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http://www.vestibular.org/ Vestibular (inner ear) disorders can cause dizziness, vertigo, imbalance, hearing changes, nausea, fatigue, anxiety, difficulty concentrating, and other symptoms, with potentially devastating effects on a person's day-to-day functioning, ability to work, relationships with family and friends, and quality of life.

Diagnosing and treating vestibular disorders is not always straightforward. In addition, such disorders are often "invisible," making it difficult for others to understand how disabling they can be.

The Vestibular Disorders Association (VEDA) is a non-profit organization that serves people with vestibular disorders and the health professionals who treat them.

VEDA provides information, resources, support, and advocacy. We strive to elevate public awareness about vestibular disorders in order to promote understanding, access to diagnosis and treatment, research, and help for those facing the challenges of living with a vestibular disorder.
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http://www.menieres-guidebook.com/guide_detail.asp?gid=TL008&a=a&assoc=Google&keyword=menieresdisea

http://www.vestibular.org/vestibular-disorders/balance.php
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Click this link below for your state and it will get a list of doctors for you. I hope this is of some help.

Baltimore, MD
Anne Spar, PT
Johns Hopkins Balance Center
601 N. Caroline St., 8th floor
Baltimore, MD 21287
(410) 955-3403

Lutherville, MD
Eric M. Gordon, PT
Maryland Ctr. for Vertigo & Balance Disorders
1212 York Rd., Ste. C-101
Lutherville, MD 21093
(410) 321-0377 just a couple that caught my eye but you can check out the others as well

http://www.vestibular.org/find-medical-help/search-by-region.php
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Here are a couple that treat dpression

Bethesda, MD
Jean Ratner, LCSW-C
Clinical social worker
8209 Hamilton Spring Ct.
Bethesda, MD 20817
(301) 469-8542
Treats anxiety, panic, and phobias related to
balance disorders
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Kensington, MD
Jean Ratner, LCSW-C
Clinical social worker
10400 Connecticut Ave., Ste. 201
Kensington, MD 2081
(301) 469-8542
Treats anxiety, panic, and phobias related to
balance disorders.
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I dont know much of this site but came acros it as a cross reference http://www.vestibular.com/

 

It breaks my heart to know that this disease is causing so much grief in your life. As the other's have said, you are not alone. Many of us have fought this disease for years and our family's don't understand what we are going through. In truth, even the most sympathetic mate can be supportive but they still can't understand. Only those that have it can really understand it. But, you can let them know what you are experiencing and what you are feeling.

Please PM me if you need a shoulder to lean on, or to cry on. There are some great folks here and they know the ups and downs, the frustration, the anger - you get the picture. This disease can isolate us from the folks we need the most. Don't give in to the dark emotions. Reach out to some of us so that we can walk together out of the dark place you are in tonight.

 

weebeefine your family loves you and is just happy you are there! Just think of how they would feel if you were not around. Seriously. Don't think they would be better off, because they wouldn't.

We are here for you, yes, but definately seek help for the depression. Just last week I was feeling so bad and so very depressed I did not think I could deal with another day. As you see, I did an I can. AND so can you. Menieres can change our lives, but we have to learn to adapt to what we can and can't do. At least that is what I am trying to do. Learn to adapt and overcome challenges however we can. Ok so you couldn't hear and couldn't eat. You can see what's going on and you can eat later.

I praying that you find your inner strength and remember we are here to help you find that strength or we will be strong for you when you can't be. Hang in there and if you've notice lot's of folks have said you can pm them and I am one. Anytime.

PS Rev is great to help you out!

We understand and care! Big {{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}} to you!

 

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Very Nice .... loved your post and had to letcha know <smile>

 

Checking in on you Weebeefine .... How are you today? Know you are in my thoughts and prayers