Conflicting emotions swirling through my brain, can't stop it, can't block the pain. I've tried so many things from morning to dusk and still I find myself thinking there's gotta be a way to make these feelings go away. They won't til I let them, I know that it's true The sadness, the joy, and I muddling through. Like walking in thick mud, my thoughts suck my will They won't let me be joyful and happy but I'll get through. One foot in front of the other, I get through my days. I put those bad feelings back behind the good ones But they won't stay. I'll get through this thick mud, I just know that I will I need those who love me, not another damn pill! It makes me angry to think some think that they know Because I'm me with a smile, don't let those feelings show. Except with those close and those I choose to accept as my friend Will this sadness and grief never end? BOOM!