There I was in the dark bathroom on that cool tile floor My arms wrapped around the bowl, my head resting on one arm Oh but my head feels so heavy Im realizing what a good thing it is that I clean this porcelain toilet every single day I'm glad I keep these two toilet freshners in, they have a nice lemony smell Oh but the porcelain is so cool I can't lift my head any longer Why am I still retching, I have nothing more to give If my world would just stop spinning, I could crawl to the bed Maybe take a Valium Maybe sleep......blessed relief while I am sleeping My ears are roaring loud I can't hear anything, but every little noise is blaring Ssshhhhhhhh...breathe in and hold it....release it slowly All of a sudden there's a cool washcloth on my neck Oh, that feels so good, it helps, breathe deeply, release The man I love tells me he would give anything to take the pain away from me So sweet he is, so comforting I begin to weep I'm start to retch, again I'm so weak, I can't fight like this anymore today I need these clothes off, I really do But I don't want to move I think it may be passing, if I get up it may start again Oh, please God make it stop Slowly, with my head resting on hubby's arm and my eyes closed, we get to the bed Hubby helps me undress and covers me with a soft furry blanket Now I am shivering He gets me the Valium and tells me to please rest, I've been pushing myself too hard I am laying flat on my back with my arms at my sides, and my ankles crossed I'm breathing, I'm starting to come out of it I am so tired, why can't I sleep I'm praying. The Our Father and Hail Mary prayer, over and over Old dog jumps on the bed and lays next to me with his head atop my leg Rocky jumps up and snuggles in the crook of my arm This brings on more crying Dogs give such unconditional love and affection. And they always know when I don't feel good. I love deeply, and I am loved I will get through this.
As I was in the "episode" it occurred to me to write about it. You can't relate if it's never happened to you. That's why this site is so great! Glad you enjoyed it, LYNN!
Now that I've learned things about MM, I realize what a terrible toll an episode like this takes on my body. I don't give myself enough time to recover. That's probably because there's so much going on, too. That wasn't the last episode I had like that, but I haven't had one in , I think, 3 days. Then there is brain fog. Ughhhhhhhh
Now for my bathroom musings I have a tabletop book titled. " Married for Life " But, I'm still keeping the porcelain throne extra clean!
As I stoked in the white deep tub Watching the bubbles, my feet they would rub I thought about the last post I put here And much better I feel, it seems like last year The water will soothe my aches and my pains Til they come back tomorrow again My toes were all wrinkled All pink and so clean The bubbles they tickled Made me feel like a queen It was calm and so peaceful To sit there and muse And ponder the bounty Around me and you. GMR
Only recent bathroom musing was me, in a hot tub, relaxing my achings muscles, with my eyes closed, while a music box my Mom gave me, a song I sang in chorus in the fourth grade. This bathroom musing is nice.
Yesterday's bathroom musing was quick, but painful due to Femeral Hernia. I guess doctors think its okay to let people suffer unnecessarily. That was my 5 minute bathroom musing for last night. I'm in remission, I guess if I wasn't, I'd have been on the floor. But, then, Who cares anyway. I know you guys do by your responses, and, or views. Thanx, my lovely support group, for just being you. Love, Gina05
My bathroom now is a spa I use sports healing bath salts and soak The room is dark Just a Catholic candle of Saint Jude is lit Because he's helped me Get like this.